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since i can write about whatever i please i think that i'm going to rant about how i wish that i had more of an opportunity to take experimental film classes! i didn't really plan out my college as well as i should have, because now i'm stuck with a limit of hours and i can only afford to take 495 next semester! i am happy though that i waited for shannon to come back and that she is incorporating experimental and animation into our documentary class because that's what i love. so again, i wish that i would have just started at UNCW in the film dept so that i could have taken your animation classes and just had more time and energy, since my college dayz are almost over i think my brain is starting to shut down from school! it's rough. 

...but i've been here long enough to know what i like and what i dont' like and what i want to pursue and definitely what i want to stay away from. as much as like i like movie making i don't think that working on set is for me! i try to help out with student productions but i'm not focussed enough to be a script supervisor, i'm not strong enough to be a grip or gaffer, and i'm not really skilled enough to be a cinematographer and i never really wanted to a director anyways, so i'm cool with that. so what else do i have, sound and editing. that's my jam. i've always wanted to get involved with sound editing, but not in the film world, in the music world. it's tough because when i went to ecu as a freshmen that's what i was going to pursue but i didn't really liek greenville very much so i move to ilm and uncw's communication major i wasn't really feeling it so i was pretty happy about switching over to film, i think that it was a pretty good move for me. but i did waste a lot of my time and i feel like i've moved away from my career in music prod, i might pick it up again down the road but who knows. anywho i do love editing. i think that it's my best quality in the film business and i can stand it which i think says alot. i wish that i was more up to making films all the time but i have a hard time creating ideas, that's why i lean more toward the experimental and animation side, i feel like it's more artistic. i do need to learn animation software, but that will be later on too. i'm really nervous about finishing up with school and not really knowing what to do with my degree but i guess that's pretty normal and exciting too. i'm really ready to just travel around and work as much as i can before i figure out where i need to stay. i'm hoping that once i'm done with school it will give me the energy and time to pursue other things, i'm really fed up with it! 

i'm sad to leave 6x1 though, i feel like of all the classes that i've taken this one has helped me the most in relating to what i'll be doing for the rest of my life, or maybe i mean that would be sweet if i could just make experimental films and be able to live off of that, i dont' really see that in my future, but just the idea of being creative and open and looking at film as an artistic medium not some rom com canvas, yuck. I'm really grateful for you and shannon and i know that even when school is over i am going to asking you guys advice all the time about everything! i'm pretty stoked on 495 with shannon and i think that this summer is really going to sky rocket me into successful, haha that's so super cheesy but i'm done writing.